If you follow me on Instagram you might already have an idea about how things are going. I am feeling so much better! I still have a tremendous lot to learn, but I do feel like it’s all going to be okay.
I dreaded starting on insulin but it has really changed my life for the better. Don’t get me wrong. It isn’t easy. I have to make decisions all day long. Not only do I need to calculate how many carbs are in my meals and the correct insulin dose to go with it. I have to take time for my pre-bolus (time I wait between injecting insulin and actually eating my meal), consider what I’ll be doing the next couple of hours, maybe take into account the food combinations (high fat, fibre, protein) that may delay the carb absorption, my blood sugar level at the time,… I don’t always get it right, but for only six weeks in, I think I am doing great.
A friend asked me if I didn’t think this was so much more difficult than when I was taking oral meds. I see why she should think so. But for me it really isn’t. I feel like I am finally free again. I am in charge, not diabetes. I have more freedom in my food choices, I can do high intensity exercise without feeling like I’ve been hit by a bus (hello adrenaline spike and no way to get the fuel/glucose in my muscles). I can walk in a store/restaurant and know I’ll always be able to eat something. On low carb I sometimes skipped a meal because I couldn’t find anything suitable.
I choose to be free. And even with all the extra headspace it takes to manage insulin therapy, I feel like there has been lifted a weight of my shoulders.
Some things I am looking forward to in the (near) future:
- Eating out and don’t have to check the menu for a suitable meal
- Spontaneous outings where we will have a grab and go lunch
- My birthday next week, with pizza and cake!
- High Intensity training that makes me feel strong.
- Travel to Asian countries and don’t worry about all the rice these people serve!
- Having drinks with friend and eat the crisps.
And this doesn’t mean I have to forsake all my healthy habits. I think balance and flexibility are key in this journey. And above all, I am the one making the decisions.
Going to the hospital and asking for insulin was a big and scary step. I am forever grateful for my good friend Daria to help me have the courage to do so.
“The secret of happiness is freedom and the secret of freedom is courage.” Thucydides.